nak tahun baru. so what's new?
i will be starting the year with a personal battle. neverending battle to shed weight since end of november and one major battle in securing my future. career actually. dugaan. sendiri cari penyakit pun ya. tapi dah tertulis begini kena tempuh. itupun dah lenient yang amat semua outcome yang datang.
new year. new resolutions?
not really to be honest. every year i did not promise myself absolute goals to be reached. cuma next year pretty significant sebab meningkat umurnya. patut meningkat matangnya. tapi tak jugak. there are aspects where i did mature tapi i'm still me. a whole lot of me. really.
cuma when i'm writing this, i am really in the middle of choosing what i wanna do next year. this prolly determine where i'll be and what i will work as juga. continue in this field or change to something else. i am practically tired. maybe this educational field has worn me out. letih. sangat. kalau boleh memilih, semua orang nak kerja tempat senang tapi duit banyak bulan bulan. gila. mana nak cari. tapi seriously it has weaken me anything that had happened before. at one point, multiple cracked dah. but yup, itu semua hidup. my life to be exact.
stress? of course. yang tahu hanya myself and Him. well now i spill la. kan? hi hi.
anywhow, i am done with recovery phase. now is pursuing phase. go for what i really want. achieve. i don't want to be defending anymore. i just wanna charge. that's all.
after this, whatever the outcome i won't be so sour thinking about it because ive given my best. till then, work hard dulu. sometimes, i felt like a part of me is elsewhere. i just can't figure out where. that, i have to seek.
challenge for 2014, seek the lost me. a minor part je pun. tapi significant. i don't want parts of me flying without cause. charge rina. lilla hi taala. :)
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