.wanderlust.

a direct definition: wanderlust is a very strong or irresistable impulse to travel.

    wanderlust poster: courtesy google.

and i might add, that impulse is driven by the choice of finding one true self. well, there will be at some point in your life, you kinda lost it and yup, you will surely have to start again and in other terms, you want to manage all the screw-ups that you have done. you wanna mend your feelings or your heart? well in my case, yeah! ouch! touchy touchy! ;p

therefore, i opt for travelling! seriously, the perks of travelling is endless. i love travelling like a lot. since a couple of significant events in my life, i opt for travelling. i travel almost monthly, anywhere and i just can't sit tight without having the chance to travel. the freedom u possess while travelling is yours. you free yourself from any baggage that you are carrying. you are FREE. literally FREE.

and recently, i went travelling solo. it was risky, seriously risky from my mother's point of view but yeah, i went for it. it was to a nearby country for almost a week. i was pretty nervous, scared and anxious all at the same time. but i really went for it. to my surprise, given the new environment, culture, dialect and community altogether, i survived. i really really want to test myself that much so i worked my ass up to ensure everything went smoothly and i am safe. alhamdulillah, it was a success.

that trip tested my survival skills. i need to be very choosy on food as i need halal food, i was on a tight budget even as a solo traveller so i did bargain and negotiate whenever any mode of transportation is needed other than my prime mode of transportation; my two feet! the language barrier! gosh i hate that but i survived through finger pointing and drawing.. hi hi! directions are important as u usually walk alone. but the main thing for me is accomodation during travelling. that's crucial, so i really secured a really clean and safe place for me. and near to my staying place, is the mosque. so, alhamdulillah, what more do i need. other basic necessities can be found easily as the 7elevensss (more than one) are also nearby. phewww.

the best part was, you travell to your own rules. you go whenever you wanna go whenever. you eat whatever you want, it your choice. whatever actions that u take, the consequences will go back at you. that's the best. lonely? nahh. it will get back to the purpose of your travelling. when i decided to go travel solo, i just want to free my mind, test myself, survive, enjoy myself, make new friends, try anything that i haven't done, explore, do it all safely and come back in one piece. ;)

when i got back, i felt so relieved as i survived. but really, He was there all the time. so i owe it all to Him. and maybe because of my wanderlust, i became someone that i never knew was there inside of me. :)

to wanderlust!

who could not surrender to a view as magnificent as this? well, i'm glad i surrendered. ;)