2012. what's for me?

its 2012.

its a new year. a Gregorian year, that is.

anywho, i did it. i end it. i told him. i end it.

6 years and still going? in our heart, sure! in reality, i'm taking a break. honestly, i'm amazed because i was so calm and contented. i said what's need to be said. i explained softly the reasons for the ultimate decision i'm taking. it's hard but i did doa so that everything goes well and work out fine. alhamdulillah.

what's after this? there are stuff that i need to settle. need to rearrange my studies schedule. time with mom. time with family and friends. time for me. need to also decide on other major things that i keep a secret for now. hope all goes well.

2012.

no fatherly-love for me. i miss abah. terribly. but he's in good shape, i just knew it. serene in his world. wishing him to be blessed everyday. to be placed with the pious ones and blessed. i want to be reunite with my dad later. gosh, this is hard.

let's just hope i get to catch the sunshine in near time. cause all i'm feeling right now is totally draining me out.

2012

be a good one for me yeah!

and happy new year y'all. have a good one too! insyaallah. =)